I'm in a cross dementia right now!!!
It's Eve of the New Year, and i don't know how I'm gonna divide myself up!
And i can't blame anyone besides myself.. because i'm the one at fault. Agreeing to everybody! And now, i'm stuck to who i should go with!
THIS IS DRIVING ME INSANE!
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And something today made me so mad!! To all my Girlfriends out there, or should i say including guys - PLEASE NEVER EVER DO SUCH A THING!! I WOULD BE SO PISSING MAD!
As everybody know, i, Shalinda has never ever had a boyfriend before. Although many would say i don't know the feeling, well, i know. I went thru that somehow with THAT "someone"! Although we wasn't an item but the whole incident made me realize that my thoughts on GUYS are true. And as i never told anyone, but that was the one thing i regret, to let my principle of life be suck my as asshole! But thankfully, that wasn't..LOVE! It was just some mere crush feeling which was dissolved quite easily for me. And the reason why till now I never believe in relationship is because - NOTHING LAST FOREVER! Much less a teen relationship! Although i have many friends telling me that their relationship will last them till they married and stuff, and how much the guy is thinking/planning/imagining all the nonsense.. Personally i think its just BULL-SHIT!
kay, let me first explain what made me so mad!!!
"SHE" broke up with her ex-boyfriend( A "used-to-be" a very nice gentlemen.) Like any other young couple, Girl was 17, Boy was 19. They met thru some course thing and they lasted for 1yr+ till they broke up! I'll admit that i don't really know this couple well but well to the extreme that i've been listening to their recent fights till they broke up! I believe that no matter how much i know them, i'm still not in the position to judge but what made me mad was the foolish thoughts of the girl! I mean why do all girls think they are in LOVE @ such a young age?! HELLLO, you are just in your teens. There are still more years to come. So many fishes out there, what makes you think he is that Dolphin?! And, even if you guys are together, do you really believe that he will be your future husband? You won't know what's going to happen in the future. And the basic question to ask these foolish people is "DO you even know what the hell is LOVE"!
Anyway, this silly lady was crying to me, telling me that her ex hooked up with another girl not long, when they broke up like a week ago. Hello, isn't that men's nature? So my reply to her was "Then, do you expect him to come back to you?"! Although i must say, that when she was talking to me, i wasn't feeling very good myself so i kindda vexed it out on her. But when i was much cooler thinking about my attitude i felt i did nothing wrong. First of all, Tell me how many girls out there actually think like me these days? Sorry to say, but not many.. everyone is just having illusions on this lala dream-land they're in, that no one actually come to terms with reality!
Another thing which made me madder was that she said she's planning to call him back, she's going to tell him that she has feelings for him and this break-up is hurting her. WAH LAO! And when i was telling her how dumb the idea was, she said all her friends said she should, after all they've been together for a year already! HOW DUMB ARE GIRLS THESE DAYS?! WHERE HAVE ALL THEIR BAINS GONE TO?! THEIR KA-CHENG?!
The first big NO-NO, after a official break-up is, never to talk to your ex till things are cooler, much say ask him back! And if the girl goes to ask for the guy, it just goes to show how despo she is.
There's still loads more that we were hooking on, but i think i should just not blog cause its so much to talk about! Anyway, it all boils down to relationship! I know many people are into it and all, i mean mostly all my girlfriends are attach, but i just want all to know that we are still growing, there are so many fishes/mermaids in the sea. I'm not saying that i'm against people who are in relationships but just be wary, Don't be too naive and take everything you have now for real. At this age in relationship is just to widen your circle, get to know what relationships is and have FUN! (EXTERNAL FUN).
I feel so relieve now, blogging it out! I'm sure everybody's opinion is subjected but i believe only those who are smart will sing the same tune as me :)
HAPPPY EVE OF NEW YEAR!
TTYL